Christmas. What it means to you?

Recently, I went up front during church service to request for a prayer. That day, the pastor was sharing about christmas as in how and why we could make this year a different christmas compared to the previous times.

Just 2 days ago on Friday night, I dreamt my Uncle. He's my dad's 2nd elder brother. I dreamt that I saw him and the moment I saw him, I was crying like how I used to as a kid whereby i was nicknamed ''cry baby''. haha.

I spent the next day, figuring out what did I dream about the night before as I felt that I had a heavy dream but couldn't remember what is it. I spent the day figuring what was it. Bit by bit, I was able to recall and before the end of the year I realised how much I missed him. Indeed I do. I have not seen him for ages.

I started to think of my childhood days how I spent on my Saturdays. My dad will bring me and my mom to visit my late grandma in JB which is in my 2nd uncle's place. Occasionally in the noon my uncle will be me out around JB to play. Fond memories are stored in my mind, and they will be there forever.

On Sunday service, I felt something was weird or something like that, it's like in my heart I felt that there's something that I should do. The service begain with worship and from there my heart for my Uncle and relatives came to me strongly. I miss them. I truely do. :)

The whole service was like a reminder for me as a christian that I should do something which is spread the good news! From the worship songs to the sermon, all of it were directed strongly to me, so when there's the altar call, I was really hesitant to decide if I should go upfront and request for a prayer. I am one of those who will think what others will think of me if I do that. It really did pulled me back a lot, hesitating me whether should I walk down.

In the end, I really when it was really really close to the last part where the Pastor said something like, this is what we can only do, bringing them to church and letting them know more about Christ. Our job is not to make them chrisitan. As I walked forward, I started crying like how I cried in my dream.

I am still praying for something to happen... :)

To all may you spend a wonderful christmas season! :D

national day? nah!

I know Singapore's National Day is tomorrow but I am not talking but it! At least for now.

I am going to post about my DAD!

Recently I had this funny conversation with my dad over my pocket $$ and ang bows.
He complained why in recent years I don't let him keep my ang bows like when I was a small kid. (OF COURSE HE KNOW WHY!) Then I replied back, " eh, next time I don't have to take care of you since I have given you part of my money already and that instead of following the trend which is when kids grow old and get a job take care of your parents but I will be the opposite which is i have taken care of you when young."

Haha, that was just a joking remark, please readers don't let it happen! Our parents have done so much for us even before we are born. Appreciate them, love them and take care of them like how or even better than the time when they take care of you when the time comes. It's our responsibility and not just that but part of our life that we should do. :)

Last saturday when I was on the roads of M'sia. I witnessed 2 motorbike accidents. For the first one it was the horrible of the 2. My dad was beside me when it happened. To my suprised, I was totally amazed to see how my dad react to it. It's a reaction that I have never seen before from my dad. It tells me why sometimes I can be so emotional at times. Because my dad is one too! That solved my doubt on how come I am one sometimes!

Anyway for both accidents, there wasn't any major injuries that has happened. Thank God.

Regards,
Eugene

I have a dream.

I used to have a dream.
My dream is I am a special kid and that one day, I can make a difference in one's life for the better.

Today, I read some of the comments from my faciliators in my school stating why I am group in a certain group which I dislike them. The main reason commented by them was that they felt that I am capable enough to help those team members of mine, whether their character is bad or their studies isn't good. After reading it I was like so amazed by it by that I am capable of.

I reflected those comments from my faciliators on my way to do my BTT (Basic theory test) and that I felt that God spoke to me thru the sunset. That he make me suffer through tough times and enjoy good times so that I am able to share and learn from these expereiences to help others change for the better. In the past, I used to complain so much to God, WHY?! are you always making me to suffer. The worse and recent one was at the begainning of this year and that I was glad that he answer my problems thru the retreat which i didn't expect to learn anything from!

I also reflected again over my decision to study my current course. The main reason that made me choose this course was also helping people and that one day I can make a trip to 3rd world countries to help them and make their life for the better. Although the focus on this is more on health but I learnt that it's not only that but I can touch and reach out to their hearts in other ways too.

So the experiences I have faced whether was it bad or good. God planned it with a purpose and that it's not only to make me stonger. But influence the people around me for the better too and there are lots and lots of ways to do that. =)

Tired but feeling happy.

o.O i didn't know Suyi tagged into my blog. . .

Life in school is pretty tiring and boring.
But the holidays are coming.

I am actually quite glad that my spritual walk with God is doing well. The church retreat was great. God answered all my doubts thru the retreat. Each time when the sermon speaks, I kept on thinking if it's reflecting on me? Making me feel kind of guilty.

In short, the church retreat make me realise the presence and the power of God and that he's plans are seriously good. I am going to share more when i reach home, blogging from school now. . . The faciliator is looking at me now. . . .

Run away!

Back

It's been a long time since I have last updated my blog.
I wonder if my readers have ran away.
RP life is so busy, stressful and tiring.
PBL = Problem based learning, is beneficial but it's killing me haha
But, i think i am doing well so far. 1st in class (hehe)
Must improve my standard to even higher level.

Lots of things happened recently.
I received more sadness than happiness.

I am finally 18.
A legal age to apply for driving license in Singapore.
My love for driving and cars were there since birth.

I am in the midst of my break,
need to recharge myself and gain stamina,
RP life is too tiring and stressful.

Going to blog again soon.


I wish to be closer ...........

impossible is 0

the videos from adidas.com.sg touched my heart. It changed me to fight on back.


Impossible is nothing.

a kid

i feel so useless . . .
i feel so sad. . .
i feel so hopeless. . .
i am begaining to cry now . . .
what am i doing on earth ?
what are there for me ?
nothing.
so?
get lost!

if i am lost,
let me be lost

i can't bring my feet up again.
or was my feet ever so high up?

i shall no longer hide it.
i can't hold on much longer.

i am stuggling just like how i was struggling for life when i was young, almost drowned in a pool.

I wish to breakaway.
I create nothing but trouble.
I am stupid.


There's a start to eveything and there's an end to everything too.
And there are things that are yet to be start, ends.



Relucantly



Tears dropped.


End

Memories

First of all, I proudly declare that bty chinese orchestra has managed to achieve silver for their 2007 syf. Bravo and congratulations! It's been a tough time and long journey for them.

I managed to get an opportunity to watch their SYF thanks to Mr Sin. When i met them in the morning, i can feel that most of them feeling are quite weak, nervous, scared and worried about their syf competition. Dragging their feet as they walk. Obviously, there's a minority group of people that had this bo-chap attitude. But at least they didn't spoil anything.

When it was time for them to board the bus and load the big instruments into the lorry, one can sense that they are trying hard to take it easy. It took some time for them to settle down and board the bus, and some girls were like "yeah" posing for photos. Oh well, it's competition you know ? haha. For the lorry, they were afraid that the instruments may drop off onto the expressway so they were like looking anxiously for at least one guy to stay in the lorry. So happen that I was at that scene when they were thinking anxiously about what to do ? I just volunteer myself to do it and then Mr Sin say with 3 girls. I was like, 'don't need la'. But i was seriously wrong. The double bass will move about when the lorry went over humps so i just told the girls to hold it down.

During the ride, I suddenly felt that these 3 girls were very brave and fantastic as they were stuck in a dark place with a stranger whom they never met and the stranger is a guy some more. So i tried hard to talk abit to add humour and calm them down if needed. And halfway through the ride, i laughed at myself, because i just happened to realise that i got the best chance to destroy Chinese orchestra and it could be the only chance i have to destroy them. Hahaa

Of course i didn't. (dotz....) Upon reaching the destination i HAD to help them unload the instruments down and did i say that the lorry wasn't a lorry at all ?? Yes, it's that horrible i was so afraid of falling to the side because it was just COVERED by just a wooden plank! Come on, there wasn't the metal bars in it. Phew~.

Next stop, was the tuning room when i personally had a glorious chance to see how they tune their instruments and it was educational and they started to practise individually, and i felt pretty good. There was some silver elements in it. haha. Almost everyone was trying their best for THE BEST.

And then, after tuning, they have to proceed to 2nd floor to WAIT. While waiting i went to chat with some fellows. Oh well, some were feeling nothing, some said they feel nothing because they got too worried. Oh well.

When they left for 3rd floor, Mrs How offered me to buy me a drink with Mr Rai, so we 3 went down to grab a bite and have a drink and have a small chat over a small meal and by then we left the table to proceed to the hall, we couldn't! :( But thankfully there was a TV and a SPEAKER! I was really delighted that the speaker wasn't that bad or budget kinds so i could hear and feel most of the parts well.

After everything, i felt it's most probably a silver, but Gold was reachable and in sight too. Just that they only had one chance to show it.

After everything, most of them were RELIEVED that it's over and their conductor was like super confident. WOoah! Great!

Fast forward, announcement of results. Well, Mr Sin was soooo nervous that he nearly didn't want to attend it. Gosh. Silver!!


AHH, i am so jealous, i had never achieved that for syf. haha. hey, but i sort of joined them for celebrations! haha and got a feel of it. Yeah.!

Gosh! It's great that they are able to achive this. This is going to be part of their life forever and it will never change! :)


last Saturday, i went for a band concert and they showed this clip about children in 3rd world countries suffering. While playing a piece. It started off showing that, when we were young, we wanted to grow quickly, and when we are older, we want to be young children again where innocent lives are present.

Children, little children can they be are forced to live into slavery, live in hunger, free labour and being a prostitute? And in some countries, it just takes 6months for a girl to be infected with AIDS.

I couldn't help but was moved to tears. quietly and thought even if they managed to live on for 10 years or longer, they will have this scare of traumatizing incident/era/period of time, left in their precious memories, or worst ARE THE ABLE TO COME OUT OF THIS HARDSHIP AND STUCK FOREVER? OR LEAVE THE WORLD EVEN BEFORE THEY HAVE SEEN AND LEARNT MORE ABOUT IT? Having a childhood bad memory, is bad and horrible. When we were young, we were innocent. There's where fond childhood memories exists. But sadly,not everyone out in the world, are able to have life like this. The older we get, the longer we want our childhood days and we would to have them back. How about those children ? I think they will probably feel the same thing, but it's just that there's a bad scar in it. It's horrifying.

Therefore,i have a request for my readers out there. Do have some thought for the unfortunate ones. Start by placing them in your heart. We may be relatively young, but we can still play a part to help the them.

Memories are precious enjoy all of them!!! We too can have a choice whether to have good memories or bad. :)

Bty CO's SYF Tomorrow

A delication to the bty chinese orchestra, finally the SYF is just tomorrow, the long journey is finally going to reach the destination. I am sure they have worked hard for it, blood sweats, sacrificing their time of for practises.

It will be paid off tomorrow when results are released. I admit that i have never been to their practise, hardly watched them play before. But what i know is that they have put their heart down to practise hard and strive to achieve at least a silver. Their spirits have been strong and good. Well, i hope band can be near this standard too. There's still some time for band to touch up and i think they are begaining to turn things up. Show the school that performing arts are good even though the school aren't supporting nor bothered at all. Show them that they are wrong, prove it to them.

Nevertheless, get a great rest tonight players! Show your professional skills that you posses to all. Be calm, have a good breakfast. Encourage one another. Don't be nervous but instead, change it to excitement. There's only one chance, one opportunity, don't miss it. Therefore treasure it to the fullest!

Don't be afraid of the history or others are playing nor laugh at others. Be sincere in your playing, show and express out that you love music!



Before i end,












You are already a Silver chinese orchestra. =)

Band. & Church.

I thought of leaving the band forever. But i can't. My passion for band music still lies in my heart. Sounds so foolish after having a bad period of time in my last band. I hope the next band i can join will be something special. Hopefully i want a concert. I have to re-build everything again. Commitments etc. Thinking back i feel as tho my commitments in the past has just went down the drain so i am a bit traumatized, having to provide my commitements. =( well we shall see. How's good that band will be. Heard from Mr Pisit (my ex-conductor) that it's GOOD. I wish it will be.


Perhaps all of your may not know, i have been considering to leave my current church and seek a new one. Have been pondering for months, and i am starting to scout for a new one. I shall not say why nor which churchs am i looking for. :)

Music in me ?or it's just a façade.
Perhaps this post may sound very serious.

BUT on the lighter note, i want to wish bty CO all the best for their upcoming SYF this coming tuesday. Especially to Suyi!!!! :D All the best!!!

Hospital pharmacist

Typical work activities include:
participating in ward rounds to take patient drug histories and contribute to the treatment decision-making process - this includes highlighting a drug's potential side effects, harmful interactions with other drugs and the suitability of treatments for patients with particular health conditions;

liaising with physicians, nurses and other fellow health care professionals to ensure the delivery of safe, effective and economic drug treatment;

counselling patients on the effects, dosage and route of administration of their drug treatments, particularly those who require complex drug therapy;

monitoring every stage of medication therapy to improve all aspects of delivery and report patient side effects;

communicating effectively with patients' relatives, community pharmacists, general practitioners (GPs), etc;

preparing and quality-checking sterile medications under special conditions (eg, intravenous medications for those unable to take food otherwise, anti-cancer medications, eye drops, etc);
ensuring medicinal products are stored appropriately and securely to ensure freshness and potency;

ensuring medication reaches the patient in the correct form and dose - this may include tablets, capsules, ointments, injections, inhalers or creams;

being responsible for the accurate dispensing and timely distribution of drugs and medicines, for inpatients or outpatients;
supervising and checking the work of less experienced and less qualified staff;
responding to medication-related queries from within the hospital, other hospitals and the general public;

keeping up to date with, and contributing to, research and development, often in collaboration with medical staff and colleagues in the pharmaceutical industry;
writing guidelines for drug use within the hospital, preparing bulletins and implementing hospital regulations;

providing information to individual wards on budgets and expenditure on drugs;
setting up clinical trials, evaluating new medications against claims made by pharmaceutical companies and recommending new medicines that are the safest and most effective for individual patient needs.

Hmm working in Hospital. . .


:)

when is school starting ?

I finally went to register my enrolement last saturday @ RP. Honestly, i wasn't really keen about getting back to school and generate my brain. Perhaps, living the life of a king isn't that productivity at all haha. The journey to my school is going to be far, and worst still it's not located beside the MRT station. oh well, we shall see.

How are you? readers. Mugging your studies? In the midst of a relationship? Experience any setback or joyous occasion lately ? Practising hard for the Singapore Youth Festival ? Share with me, via email, sms, msn!!. =)

I think my drum skills is improving well right on track, ALMOST as i want it to be. I was reluctant to attend the training session from church at first but this week will be the last. I hope to end with a big bang. Plus, i am learning bass guitar currently, but have no plans to purchase one yet. No money in my a/c. haha

I will be having 2 orientation starting 3april and another one around 13 april. The first one is organised from the faculty and another one as a poly together. Oh well let's see what they have planned.

Lastly, I want to congrate all those who had their appeals for JAE choosen and for those who have yet to or has unsuccessful application. Don't be discouraged, get motivated instead. A setback is a start of a success. :)

finally another post :P

oops, it's been a while since i last post something. From my last post, i talked about my o levels, now it has been more than a month since i received it. Am i suppose to be happy or sad, i got no idea. It's just not really the way i wanted it to be. Well, perhaps i should be contented that my results were better than most of my stream. Anyway i got into the course i wanted to but not the school, but it's alright. As this year's JAE was damn tricky.

yep, schools starting in last than a month's time. I am going to finalise my registration by this week and get a laptop haha.

Anyway, sorry readers for not updateing, i was just too busy travelling in and out of s'pore and m'sia handling stuffs. Since school is starting, i shall read out more about things related to my course :P and perhaps post it out.

Cheers

It's drawing near everyday..

Back in Singapore again. Oh yes, I passed my pre-test. I was feeling so nervous during the test (as usual for any test or exams) but I still have to thank God he calmed me down and let me drive safely and comfortable. I took a chance to calm down by talking to the office. I find the short conversation very nice. Within a short conversation, he seems to trust me and he talks about his sad experiences from his family and although he is a Malay, he knows how to speak Chinese! Cool and he gadly said to me that he got more chinese friends than Malay and he enjoys time with them =) haha!

Anyway, I will be back in Malaysia tomorrow for my Final driving lesson and then should be taking the test on 31/1.

I am so PETRIFIED, AFRAID, WORRIED, SCARED, LIVING IN FEAR as results will soon be released. I think it should be fine, plus with God presence it will be better. =)

Driving

I actually wanted to continue the post about my trip to Cameron Highlands but there's too much to say, I have yet to plan how to post it haha. Soon or later it will be out.

Some of you out there may know there i am super interested in cars and have been longing to drive a car or drive a car legally, at least. Well, the LOOOONNG wait is going to be over, I am going to have my pre-test tomorrow for driving and I am anxious over it man! Seriously being a driver is entirely different feeling as compared to a passanger. I have driven over Highways and reached over 80km/h. =) But guess what ?! It's a Malaysia Driving License ain't Singapore's one.

To some people, it seems no point to have one, it's like you stay in Singapore what for get one in Malaysia ? To me, all i bothered is just to be able to drive a car freely and legally. Can't wait for the day where I can travel around Malaysia with a car!!! Besides, I have been thinking recently that living in Malaysia is a better option for me in the future, life seems to suit me more over there. I hope my test will be on next monday.

I purposely asked my dad this question "will you let me drive your car when i got my license ?" he *shakes* his head. haha I wasn't at all suprised by that answer. My family members are worried about my driving style haha. Because during car journey, most of the comments i made are some kind of racer in mind, 'beat the red light!' 'overtake that car!' Despite these I am very sure that I know when to speed and when not too from my experiences as a co-driver and I made a number of strong commands before to slow down and it proved right okay.

Although my dad is aslow driver, but to me, he is the safest driver of all which I firmly believe, it's one of the hardest to obtain as a driver.

All my toy cars, suddenly seems to come to reality! My mom knows best how I played with those toy cars at that time. It's sweet that she remembers it well. I am really going to put my all in this pre-test and up-coming test. It will be one step closer to be a Racer. Thank God =)

That's me on Toyota Hilux, at the back, when I was in Cameron Highlands! Thanks Ben for taking it for me =)

I am a friend of God !

I am Back! After Christmas service, I went to buy a new monitor, tho it's still 17 inch but, hey it's LCD flat monitor and only one word to describe, GREAT! Colours and sharpness is cool, maybe sound kinda sua ku haha but i have been using a CRT one till now you see. Yup on the 27th, went on a trip with a group of church members to Cameron Highlands. A bus ride that took more than a day to reach there. Entered M'sia via second link, and went to Tebau Shopping center AGAIN! haha. Next, dinner at kota tinggi, drank some wine and made myself feel hot but not RED!


Ah, photos will be coming out real soon. haha that's all for now.