Christmas. What it means to you?

Recently, I went up front during church service to request for a prayer. That day, the pastor was sharing about christmas as in how and why we could make this year a different christmas compared to the previous times.

Just 2 days ago on Friday night, I dreamt my Uncle. He's my dad's 2nd elder brother. I dreamt that I saw him and the moment I saw him, I was crying like how I used to as a kid whereby i was nicknamed ''cry baby''. haha.

I spent the next day, figuring out what did I dream about the night before as I felt that I had a heavy dream but couldn't remember what is it. I spent the day figuring what was it. Bit by bit, I was able to recall and before the end of the year I realised how much I missed him. Indeed I do. I have not seen him for ages.

I started to think of my childhood days how I spent on my Saturdays. My dad will bring me and my mom to visit my late grandma in JB which is in my 2nd uncle's place. Occasionally in the noon my uncle will be me out around JB to play. Fond memories are stored in my mind, and they will be there forever.

On Sunday service, I felt something was weird or something like that, it's like in my heart I felt that there's something that I should do. The service begain with worship and from there my heart for my Uncle and relatives came to me strongly. I miss them. I truely do. :)

The whole service was like a reminder for me as a christian that I should do something which is spread the good news! From the worship songs to the sermon, all of it were directed strongly to me, so when there's the altar call, I was really hesitant to decide if I should go upfront and request for a prayer. I am one of those who will think what others will think of me if I do that. It really did pulled me back a lot, hesitating me whether should I walk down.

In the end, I really when it was really really close to the last part where the Pastor said something like, this is what we can only do, bringing them to church and letting them know more about Christ. Our job is not to make them chrisitan. As I walked forward, I started crying like how I cried in my dream.

I am still praying for something to happen... :)

To all may you spend a wonderful christmas season! :D