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Thursday, April 5, 2007
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
a kid
i feel so useless . . .
i feel so sad. . .
i feel so hopeless. . .
i am begaining to cry now . . .
what am i doing on earth ?
what are there for me ?
nothing.
so?
get lost!
if i am lost,
let me be lost
i can't bring my feet up again.
or was my feet ever so high up?
i shall no longer hide it.
i can't hold on much longer.
i am stuggling just like how i was struggling for life when i was young, almost drowned in a pool.
I wish to breakaway.
I create nothing but trouble.
I am stupid.
There's a start to eveything and there's an end to everything too.
And there are things that are yet to be start, ends.
Relucantly
Tears dropped.
End
i feel so sad. . .
i feel so hopeless. . .
i am begaining to cry now . . .
what am i doing on earth ?
what are there for me ?
nothing.
so?
get lost!
if i am lost,
let me be lost
i can't bring my feet up again.
or was my feet ever so high up?
i shall no longer hide it.
i can't hold on much longer.
i am stuggling just like how i was struggling for life when i was young, almost drowned in a pool.
I wish to breakaway.
I create nothing but trouble.
I am stupid.
There's a start to eveything and there's an end to everything too.
And there are things that are yet to be start, ends.
Relucantly
Tears dropped.
End
Memories
First of all, I proudly declare that bty chinese orchestra has managed to achieve silver for their 2007 syf. Bravo and congratulations! It's been a tough time and long journey for them.
I managed to get an opportunity to watch their SYF thanks to Mr Sin. When i met them in the morning, i can feel that most of them feeling are quite weak, nervous, scared and worried about their syf competition. Dragging their feet as they walk. Obviously, there's a minority group of people that had this bo-chap attitude. But at least they didn't spoil anything.
When it was time for them to board the bus and load the big instruments into the lorry, one can sense that they are trying hard to take it easy. It took some time for them to settle down and board the bus, and some girls were like "yeah" posing for photos. Oh well, it's competition you know ? haha. For the lorry, they were afraid that the instruments may drop off onto the expressway so they were like looking anxiously for at least one guy to stay in the lorry. So happen that I was at that scene when they were thinking anxiously about what to do ? I just volunteer myself to do it and then Mr Sin say with 3 girls. I was like, 'don't need la'. But i was seriously wrong. The double bass will move about when the lorry went over humps so i just told the girls to hold it down.
During the ride, I suddenly felt that these 3 girls were very brave and fantastic as they were stuck in a dark place with a stranger whom they never met and the stranger is a guy some more. So i tried hard to talk abit to add humour and calm them down if needed. And halfway through the ride, i laughed at myself, because i just happened to realise that i got the best chance to destroy Chinese orchestra and it could be the only chance i have to destroy them. Hahaa
Of course i didn't. (dotz....) Upon reaching the destination i HAD to help them unload the instruments down and did i say that the lorry wasn't a lorry at all ?? Yes, it's that horrible i was so afraid of falling to the side because it was just COVERED by just a wooden plank! Come on, there wasn't the metal bars in it. Phew~.
Next stop, was the tuning room when i personally had a glorious chance to see how they tune their instruments and it was educational and they started to practise individually, and i felt pretty good. There was some silver elements in it. haha. Almost everyone was trying their best for THE BEST.
And then, after tuning, they have to proceed to 2nd floor to WAIT. While waiting i went to chat with some fellows. Oh well, some were feeling nothing, some said they feel nothing because they got too worried. Oh well.
When they left for 3rd floor, Mrs How offered me to buy me a drink with Mr Rai, so we 3 went down to grab a bite and have a drink and have a small chat over a small meal and by then we left the table to proceed to the hall, we couldn't! :( But thankfully there was a TV and a SPEAKER! I was really delighted that the speaker wasn't that bad or budget kinds so i could hear and feel most of the parts well.
After everything, i felt it's most probably a silver, but Gold was reachable and in sight too. Just that they only had one chance to show it.
After everything, most of them were RELIEVED that it's over and their conductor was like super confident. WOoah! Great!
Fast forward, announcement of results. Well, Mr Sin was soooo nervous that he nearly didn't want to attend it. Gosh. Silver!!
AHH, i am so jealous, i had never achieved that for syf. haha. hey, but i sort of joined them for celebrations! haha and got a feel of it. Yeah.!
Gosh! It's great that they are able to achive this. This is going to be part of their life forever and it will never change! :)
last Saturday, i went for a band concert and they showed this clip about children in 3rd world countries suffering. While playing a piece. It started off showing that, when we were young, we wanted to grow quickly, and when we are older, we want to be young children again where innocent lives are present.
Children, little children can they be are forced to live into slavery, live in hunger, free labour and being a prostitute? And in some countries, it just takes 6months for a girl to be infected with AIDS.
I couldn't help but was moved to tears. quietly and thought even if they managed to live on for 10 years or longer, they will have this scare of traumatizing incident/era/period of time, left in their precious memories, or worst ARE THE ABLE TO COME OUT OF THIS HARDSHIP AND STUCK FOREVER? OR LEAVE THE WORLD EVEN BEFORE THEY HAVE SEEN AND LEARNT MORE ABOUT IT? Having a childhood bad memory, is bad and horrible. When we were young, we were innocent. There's where fond childhood memories exists. But sadly,not everyone out in the world, are able to have life like this. The older we get, the longer we want our childhood days and we would to have them back. How about those children ? I think they will probably feel the same thing, but it's just that there's a bad scar in it. It's horrifying.
Therefore,i have a request for my readers out there. Do have some thought for the unfortunate ones. Start by placing them in your heart. We may be relatively young, but we can still play a part to help the them.
Memories are precious enjoy all of them!!! We too can have a choice whether to have good memories or bad. :)
I managed to get an opportunity to watch their SYF thanks to Mr Sin. When i met them in the morning, i can feel that most of them feeling are quite weak, nervous, scared and worried about their syf competition. Dragging their feet as they walk. Obviously, there's a minority group of people that had this bo-chap attitude. But at least they didn't spoil anything.
When it was time for them to board the bus and load the big instruments into the lorry, one can sense that they are trying hard to take it easy. It took some time for them to settle down and board the bus, and some girls were like "yeah" posing for photos. Oh well, it's competition you know ? haha. For the lorry, they were afraid that the instruments may drop off onto the expressway so they were like looking anxiously for at least one guy to stay in the lorry. So happen that I was at that scene when they were thinking anxiously about what to do ? I just volunteer myself to do it and then Mr Sin say with 3 girls. I was like, 'don't need la'. But i was seriously wrong. The double bass will move about when the lorry went over humps so i just told the girls to hold it down.
During the ride, I suddenly felt that these 3 girls were very brave and fantastic as they were stuck in a dark place with a stranger whom they never met and the stranger is a guy some more. So i tried hard to talk abit to add humour and calm them down if needed. And halfway through the ride, i laughed at myself, because i just happened to realise that i got the best chance to destroy Chinese orchestra and it could be the only chance i have to destroy them. Hahaa
Of course i didn't. (dotz....) Upon reaching the destination i HAD to help them unload the instruments down and did i say that the lorry wasn't a lorry at all ?? Yes, it's that horrible i was so afraid of falling to the side because it was just COVERED by just a wooden plank! Come on, there wasn't the metal bars in it. Phew~.
Next stop, was the tuning room when i personally had a glorious chance to see how they tune their instruments and it was educational and they started to practise individually, and i felt pretty good. There was some silver elements in it. haha. Almost everyone was trying their best for THE BEST.
And then, after tuning, they have to proceed to 2nd floor to WAIT. While waiting i went to chat with some fellows. Oh well, some were feeling nothing, some said they feel nothing because they got too worried. Oh well.
When they left for 3rd floor, Mrs How offered me to buy me a drink with Mr Rai, so we 3 went down to grab a bite and have a drink and have a small chat over a small meal and by then we left the table to proceed to the hall, we couldn't! :( But thankfully there was a TV and a SPEAKER! I was really delighted that the speaker wasn't that bad or budget kinds so i could hear and feel most of the parts well.
After everything, i felt it's most probably a silver, but Gold was reachable and in sight too. Just that they only had one chance to show it.
After everything, most of them were RELIEVED that it's over and their conductor was like super confident. WOoah! Great!
Fast forward, announcement of results. Well, Mr Sin was soooo nervous that he nearly didn't want to attend it. Gosh. Silver!!
AHH, i am so jealous, i had never achieved that for syf. haha. hey, but i sort of joined them for celebrations! haha and got a feel of it. Yeah.!
Gosh! It's great that they are able to achive this. This is going to be part of their life forever and it will never change! :)
last Saturday, i went for a band concert and they showed this clip about children in 3rd world countries suffering. While playing a piece. It started off showing that, when we were young, we wanted to grow quickly, and when we are older, we want to be young children again where innocent lives are present.
Children, little children can they be are forced to live into slavery, live in hunger, free labour and being a prostitute? And in some countries, it just takes 6months for a girl to be infected with AIDS.
I couldn't help but was moved to tears. quietly and thought even if they managed to live on for 10 years or longer, they will have this scare of traumatizing incident/era/period of time, left in their precious memories, or worst ARE THE ABLE TO COME OUT OF THIS HARDSHIP AND STUCK FOREVER? OR LEAVE THE WORLD EVEN BEFORE THEY HAVE SEEN AND LEARNT MORE ABOUT IT? Having a childhood bad memory, is bad and horrible. When we were young, we were innocent. There's where fond childhood memories exists. But sadly,not everyone out in the world, are able to have life like this. The older we get, the longer we want our childhood days and we would to have them back. How about those children ? I think they will probably feel the same thing, but it's just that there's a bad scar in it. It's horrifying.
Therefore,i have a request for my readers out there. Do have some thought for the unfortunate ones. Start by placing them in your heart. We may be relatively young, but we can still play a part to help the them.
Memories are precious enjoy all of them!!! We too can have a choice whether to have good memories or bad. :)
Monday, April 2, 2007
Bty CO's SYF Tomorrow
A delication to the bty chinese orchestra, finally the SYF is just tomorrow, the long journey is finally going to reach the destination. I am sure they have worked hard for it, blood sweats, sacrificing their time of for practises.
It will be paid off tomorrow when results are released. I admit that i have never been to their practise, hardly watched them play before. But what i know is that they have put their heart down to practise hard and strive to achieve at least a silver. Their spirits have been strong and good. Well, i hope band can be near this standard too. There's still some time for band to touch up and i think they are begaining to turn things up. Show the school that performing arts are good even though the school aren't supporting nor bothered at all. Show them that they are wrong, prove it to them.
Nevertheless, get a great rest tonight players! Show your professional skills that you posses to all. Be calm, have a good breakfast. Encourage one another. Don't be nervous but instead, change it to excitement. There's only one chance, one opportunity, don't miss it. Therefore treasure it to the fullest!
Don't be afraid of the history or others are playing nor laugh at others. Be sincere in your playing, show and express out that you love music!
Before i end,
You are already a Silver chinese orchestra. =)
It will be paid off tomorrow when results are released. I admit that i have never been to their practise, hardly watched them play before. But what i know is that they have put their heart down to practise hard and strive to achieve at least a silver. Their spirits have been strong and good. Well, i hope band can be near this standard too. There's still some time for band to touch up and i think they are begaining to turn things up. Show the school that performing arts are good even though the school aren't supporting nor bothered at all. Show them that they are wrong, prove it to them.
Nevertheless, get a great rest tonight players! Show your professional skills that you posses to all. Be calm, have a good breakfast. Encourage one another. Don't be nervous but instead, change it to excitement. There's only one chance, one opportunity, don't miss it. Therefore treasure it to the fullest!
Don't be afraid of the history or others are playing nor laugh at others. Be sincere in your playing, show and express out that you love music!
Before i end,
You are already a Silver chinese orchestra. =)
Sunday, April 1, 2007
Band. & Church.
I thought of leaving the band forever. But i can't. My passion for band music still lies in my heart. Sounds so foolish after having a bad period of time in my last band. I hope the next band i can join will be something special. Hopefully i want a concert. I have to re-build everything again. Commitments etc. Thinking back i feel as tho my commitments in the past has just went down the drain so i am a bit traumatized, having to provide my commitements. =( well we shall see. How's good that band will be. Heard from Mr Pisit (my ex-conductor) that it's GOOD. I wish it will be.
Perhaps all of your may not know, i have been considering to leave my current church and seek a new one. Have been pondering for months, and i am starting to scout for a new one. I shall not say why nor which churchs am i looking for. :)
Music in me ?or it's just a façade.
Perhaps this post may sound very serious.
BUT on the lighter note, i want to wish bty CO all the best for their upcoming SYF this coming tuesday. Especially to Suyi!!!! :D All the best!!!
Perhaps all of your may not know, i have been considering to leave my current church and seek a new one. Have been pondering for months, and i am starting to scout for a new one. I shall not say why nor which churchs am i looking for. :)
Music in me ?or it's just a façade.
Perhaps this post may sound very serious.
BUT on the lighter note, i want to wish bty CO all the best for their upcoming SYF this coming tuesday. Especially to Suyi!!!! :D All the best!!!
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